I May Need That Later
It is difficult for me to clean and organize my house. While time and space are certainly factors, it is because the things I don't want now, I may need later. Christmas decorations are at the top of my list. I can't get rid of them, or I will have to purchase more when the next Christmas comes along. Children's clothing is another issue. What one grows out of the next one can wear. Baby clothes make great doll clothes. Recyclables make great building materials for my kids' crafty props.
Sometimes I feel suffocated by my own thriftiness.
It all comes down to faith. If I had more faith, I would not be afraid of being without. If I trusted Jesus more, I could let go of the "maybe someday" things someone else might use right now. Little by little I need to face the chains of my past and offer them to God, link by link. God wants me to be free of them. God wants me to be healed of the festering wounds I try to hide. God wants me to be His.
The Lord is my Shepherd; there is nothing I shall lack. He makes me lie down in green pastures; He leads me to tranquil streams. He restores my soul, guiding me in paths of righteousness so that His name may be glorified. Even though I wander through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil, for You are at my side, with Your rod and Your staff that comfort me. You spread a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Only goodness and kindness will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever and ever. Psalm 23: 1-6